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[17 Jul 2005|08:28pm] |
This Journal should of been shut down last Friday but I haven't been around.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) jayxm
Goodbye memories.
And this shall be set ablaze.
Jay-eM
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| Emiliana Torrini <3333 |
[14 Jul 2005|05:18am] |
Throw me some constructive feedback.
This LJ will be shutting down at the end of the week. Just so you kids know...
Not exactly sure what my new username will be but I'll post it up later.
Can't wait to order my new computer. Shit's yellow with blue light.
Hence the new colors I'm using for this.
Damn tonight I feel like a little kid back in grade school with a major crush.
Not sure what to think cause barely even have talked to this girl.
Yet her profile fits like everything I would want in a woman.
Plus she listens to Trip-Hop and such -=O
Krista hook a brother up.
Good night kids.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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| School, French Chicks, Greek Life, Keg!, Move and ROCK! |
[13 Jul 2005|04:14am] |
hang on to the glory of my right hand
here lay to rest is our love everlong
we're two from the shores of compassion
you seem to take privilege to all of these
Monday might have started something new to my summer.
Javi and Gomez gave me heads up on Summer Rush starting.
Showed up to FIU with my letters. No joke once I was out of the parking lot
all I heard was hey brother! met a billion brothers from the chapter there.
went to class and feel confidence about the material just not sure how this guy test is.
Came home and took nice nap. Woke up ate dinner and showered.
Called up Lara since I thought it be cool to show up with someone else from USF.
Fucking Eyyy sht gets started so quick its so retarded. Got a call from her today how
somehow it went around in Tampa that Lara and I are dating. Fuck for that I wouldn't
have called her. Retarded Drama Greek Life has... no joke I thought we were in college.
Whatever chilled at the Greek BBQ and Lara was miss cool girl knowing like everyone we walked by.
Kind of glad it wasn't like that for me I'm not a big fan of running into people unless they cool
Saw Jackie from Youth Group.. she looks amazing and still seems to be a sweet heart.
Also met a bunch of the AZD's at FIU. Damn really liked what I saw and disposition a lot of them had.
As far as the TKE's go here they a bit weird. Definitely not like the chapter up at USF.
They definitely have some Hispanics, blacks, and weirdos... some cool guys though.
Really liked the Sammy's too. As far as the Pikes go... Fuck Em'
Came back from the BBQ early to have some people over.
Lara ended up just staying with me and not selling out.
Gomez was at my place waiting already since it was taking forever to get wine.
Tiffany showed up with Rene from Belen and some of his cousins.
Yea his cousins were definitely from France. One was BEAUTIFUL and a personality like WOW.
They were so classy and proper yet had this sarcastic thing to them that made it even more sexy.
We had a good time hitting up the hookah and all sorts of weird conversations by translations.
Ricky and Javi C showed up. It was chill having them over later on. We watched RHCP dvd.
wow those French chicks were so cool... it would be nice to go over there knowing French.
I totally felt like I was stuck in the movie Amelie but such a fun experience and random night.
Today I woke up and got bored so headed over to TKE Booth to hang out.
Met some more brothers and hung out with a group of them after.
Went to lunch with one of the brothers who seems mad down to Earth.
Reminds me of the type of person I am within the chapter up there.
Hung out for awhile till the TKE Car Show went on. Felt a little weird with so many people around.
Not to mention still don't really know a lot of them and they all doing there own thing so its a bit weird.
Went home and took great nap that hit the spot.
Woke up and headed over back to the TKE Car Show thing.
It seemed a lot cooler when I went then cause the brothers all recognized me and were saying whats up.
Met the guys who would translate to the Dank Club at USF. Finally a hook up. Good times with those guys after the car show thing. Its interesting hanging out with them. It was really weird and I never really thought of it but they planning to take a road trip visiting all the different chapters. They asked me if it would be weird cause the different culture with Hispanic and blacks being at that chapter. Never really thought of it cause I don't get shit for that and Larry is also Hispanic and noone really makes a big deal about it. Interesting how they asked me that though. Another thing about Greek Life was how I totally showed up and they were mad cool about going ot hang and smoke. They totally made me feel as if I was one of them and inviting me to all there shit.
Tonight I got home and was chillen when I looked at my friends page and saw someone talking about new Coheed Song. I had just read about how they are recording the new album already and should be out in August or September. Yea definitely found out that one of the songs has been like put out there to listen too today. Its fucking SICKK... It reminds me sort of the old Shabutie stuff. Point being it fucking rocks hardcore and can't wait till album is complete. Hope I can get a copy of it before September 20th when the release date is.
On other news I'll be going to Tampa Saturday probably. I'll probably drop a keg because I'm in drinking mood. So for all you Tampa kids. Keg Saturday. Steve and I have been talking and we finally are moving into Village Oaks. Spoc is going to stay home while we wait for our three bedroom is done. August 1st is my move in date. I'm kinda excited but not really cause I won't be living with Kevin or Helen anymore (actually might miss Manda but probably cause Blaine was madd cool). Its going to be weird to get use too but while we ate the 2 bed room Snatch, Rabbit, GM, Fupa, and MFC will be in our same building. Should be interesting... Robin and Kristen are also moving to Village Oaks so I'm sure they'll be coming over like they did before so that also means Steph and Kim will probably be around still. I probably won't see Crystal and Taylor around so much since I didn't really with them living across from us. All in all I'm kinda of anxious to set up my new room and have new set up. Straight up damnn I'm going to miss those late nights with Kevin just eating shit playing video games and watching movies. Helen wasn't around much but it was always nice having her around when she wasn't in one of her moods (if you read this you know what I mean and love you to death so don't attack me for it).
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
ps: New Coheed Song...
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| Casual Sex |
[10 Jul 2005|05:06am] |
Today I woke up to having to get ready for my little nieces birthday party in 954. I was so thrilled. NOT! My cousin came over before to drop off the presents for my niece since the 3 cousins couldn't make it to the party. She came over with a friend of hers that was in town. It was weird everyone was on one side of the house and I was in the office and suddenly my cousins friend totally walked into the office and just sat on my lap and started making out with me. It was one of the weirdest things that's happened in awhile. Some really hot like 29year old just walking in and making out with you and such.
After that I left with a smile on my face. Totally past out during the drive up since I forgot my ipod. The birthday party was lame and really bothering me because all these flashbacks have been coming to me about the past summer with Katie. It got to the point that I almost called Katie to say hi since I haven't in awhile but I decided against it and will see what will happen. Hung out with my uncle and aunt who I haven't seen in awhile. Was weird seeing my sisters friend who I totally have had a crush on since I was little. Another crazy thing happened I was walking out of the bathroom she was walking towards the girls bathroom and totally pulled me aside and gave me her number and kissed me on the lips. Something is wrong it felt like the world was spinning on a different axis today. Eventually left after trying to leave for ages so I could goto the laser show. Totally missed it of course like usual.
Got home and took a nap for awhile. Of course I couldn't sleep and woke up and have been eating shit online and listening to music. Literally this week-end has sucked tremendously. One thing that has been really cool is the conversations I've had today. Zasha called today while on the way back and got some good news. Hopefully everything will work out so she won't have to have surgery. Even though I stayed home I had great conversation with Soleil, Sara, and little bit with Lori. Its nice to know that I haven't completely lost my skill of seeing into someone really deep without being around them much at all. Sometimes I get scared how good I get not to mention I'm sure it freaks them out even more. Sometimes you just have to play like your dumb when the truth is you know a lot more than you think. -=)
One thing though. Being able to do what I do might be what I love to do... have long talks and help people out. Yet it makes me lonely as fuck because I'm usually helping woman out with certain issues in life and some relationship/crush problems.
What I would do to have someone to cuddle with and share these lonely nights with... Unfortunately it can't be just anyone.
Also forgot to mention I got some AMAZING news which will brighten up the summer last week. I'm kind of excited about it because I think it might make summer a lot less duller again.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
ps: Those two stories about being kissed... totally made up just wanted to add some spice up to my entry. Totally pulling a Chris there.
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| It's been awhile don't judge to harshly... |
[09 Jul 2005|02:17pm] |
Last night I was up and had an idea to start designing something since I haven't used Photoshop in awhile. I've gotten rusty when it comes to ideas. For some reason I feel like I have so much more control on PS now than before. Now its just a matter of mastering some things I never got around too.
Fuck Hurricanes... it brings back to many memories.
Last night was a perfectly good Friday night totally wasted.
Getting ready to head to my lil nieces b-day party in 954.
Seems to me like summer is really having its way with making everyone I know pretty lonely. And not going to lie its obviously affected me. LOL.
The other night lots of people came by. It was nice but at the sametime a big headache. I just felt overwhelmed by trying to pay attention to everyone and just chill. At the end of the night it was chill. Not to mention it was really nice to see some people I haven't seen in awhile.
My plans for the beach for the past week have totally gone unfulfilled. Ohh well shit happens so not going to stress it since theres still like a month of summer left. I should start planning a trip for the end of summer b. I really want to goto New Orleans but not sure I'll save that for during the year. Paula keeps talking about New Years trip but not really excited about going anywhere for that. Where I really want to goto is Capri, Italy. That's something I want to save for a g/f in the future or honeymoon.
I've been wondering what my next long entry concentrated on one topic should be. The thing that seems like would be the best one to talk about is Friendships. Seems like its something everyone practically deals with and have had some interesting ones that give plenty of material to generalize.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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| Here the light has cried. His voice is dry and hollow |
[07 Jul 2005|09:13pm] |
Miami is at one of its high points.
Monday was a bit dull but hung out with Tiffany and it had been awhile.
Don't really want to get into it.
Sunday was great because got to see Caro and hang out with cool people.
Tuesday was a very thrilling day. I woke up early to buy my book at FIU ($120 DAMN THEM). From there I called Zasha up to hit the beach up with some friends. Yet of course those plans got annihilated but it was all right cause I went out to lunch with Zasha at the Sushi place behind Sunset. After lunch we ventured off to Starbucks and had some more conversation. It's so nice to just sit back with Zasha. It's as if all the negative energy is completely gone but I have to worry about people like Brimo, Vicky, and others who might try to destroy this friendship. It scared me when Zasha brought up a story of that night. I'd do anything to erase that day from existence. After Starbucks we walked around Sunset. I had this rush walking around with her as if everything in the world was balanced. Spending the afternoon with one of my new best friends, enjoying the weather, and exchange of words.
Yesterday was another relaxing day. I woke up and read the rest of the material for my class. Headed over to class and sat though a complete 3 hour lecture. Fun fun fun. After class I ventured back home for a refreshing nap. Called up Espi and he told me of venturing off to the beach with some guitars and such. Met up with them at Sergio's. Caro ended up coming with us and I rode out with her. It's been extremely sweet having Caro here. It hit me the other day Caro is the girl I've known the longest and kept in touch with the whole entire time really (besides Cadovy of course). We took a serious field trip to pick up Krista on the other side of the world. Was worth it because we (Caro and Krista) sang a bunch of songs which include the hit song, sand in my vagina! Ennovy showed up later on with her cousin and had some Presidente (sp). All in all it was relaxing as hell and nice to have someone like Caro around that would lay on my lap and be able to give a massage too.
Today I was suppose to goto the beach with Caro but plans didn't fall though since we overslept and was sort of overcast. We ended up hitting up SUBSTANTIAL cause that shit rocks your face. Danski's friend was working and got to say whats up. He hooked it up by putting madd sauce in my sub making it tingle in my mouth. hahaha. From there we hit up Sunset to watch Bewitched. I'm so glad I didn't see it with Cassie and saw it with Caro. It's funny how all these movies are kind of hinting to relationships and marriage. The movie was entertaining but very odd because as I watch the movie I think these are actors and they just reading a script. The best part of the movie was this one girl that I've totally fallen in love with. She doesn't play a major role at all but she hangs out a lot with Nicole Kidman. She has short hair and glasses and resembled what I would like one of my lovers to look like. Should find out her name because wow my heart belongs to her now.
Today I'm having a bunch of people over. Hopefully my old friend Stephy will come by. It'll be nice to have her come by and catch up since she's a mission to get ahold of and ever see. No joke this girl is the hardest person to get ahold of. A lot of the same people will be coming and hopefully some that don't appear as much like Paula, Lori, Natalie S, Bedoya, etc.. Hopefully Caro will come cause lately its put me in such an amazing mood having her around.
All right now off to get some new tobacco maybe and coals for tonight.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
PS: Find it funny how the person who named my first journal "The Inquirer" is not telling me I should write like weekly entries about certain things. The person who denounced my writing from the start is now encouraging it. Odd.
pss: This LJ will be shutting down soon. It's almost hit its one year mark. That means new LJ to be designed soon. Three years of writing... SICK
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| Serious Relationships and Marriage?!!?!?!? |
[05 Jul 2005|02:31am] |
Is a relationship really all its out to be?
Coming from someone who think that they are fully complete with a partner is going to try to answer this is the most reasonable fashion. After going from relationship to relationship I felt great. The whole singleness wasn't for such an extended period of time.
Being in a two year relationship in high school taught me a lot. Not to mention being in one with some a unique person. Her history, personality, and story was so amazing to me and eventually thought it was the best thing that happened to me. We would go out every week-end probably and would think all week how I wanted to see her. Yet every night we would stay at my place and watch a movie or go out to dinner. Occasionally we would go out and hang out with some of my friends. Towards the end of the relationship it got ugly and it tore me apart for a good year. Swearing that I'd never let it change who I am it only made me more emotional. I wasn't about to conform and become a total whore. Yet my heart was broken and nothing seemed to fill the void till I started dating again.
My next girlfriend was Danielle. She seemed to totally enjoy my company and adored the time we had together. We really wouldn't do much except watch movies, talk in person, and have sex. I don't remember one time where we really went out except to a show here and there. Most of the time we were having sex. I remember her complaining that we didn't go out and all this stuff. We did go see this single cell animation movie after she told me that. It was nice but couldn't change the fact that we were in Tampa and we didn't really go out to dinner or movies much.
Now my last ex was Katie. Probably the happiest I've ever been with a woman. I made some serious mistakes but in the end I was pretty happy with the relationship we had. We would spend lots of time talking and discussing things even if we disagreed and yet we still got along great. I remember endless times were I just laid in her bed just watching her read and talking about random stuff. We really didn't go out much to clubs or bars to dance but more of hang out with the neighbors and drink with them. So in a sense it wasn't just movies and sex. We spoke a lot more, had more mutual friends, and went out to dinner much more than I had with previous g/fs. I really wasn't too bored with it at all but knew we could of definitely gone out more but most of the time she was tired from work or had school stuff to take care of but we still partied and hung out with friends. We probably spent way too much time together and should of taken some time alone a bit more. Kinda really regret that and still think it would have been easier if had joined TKE earlier so we could of balanced time out so we could have more time to ourselves.
After reviewing all of this and looking at other relationships I've seen and been close too my conclusion is are we ready for something so serious at a young age?! I'm not going to lie the relationship that Katie and I had resembled very much a marriage is. I was happy but I think about it and wonder if I would have gotten bored of it later on.
Look at your parents or older people who are together. The most they do is like go out to see a movie or dinner. How often do your parents or older couples who are serious go out to clubs and party there asses off? The most exciting things to them are like holidays to maybe go out to dinner with some friends. All they do is hang out after work and usually they tired and have to cook dinner and eventually just sit there infront of the TV or something. After seeing Mr. and Mrs. Smith its like wow is that what I want in a marriage?! Yet what are you going to do to really spicen it up? It's like come on for real once we get a lot older or have an extremely serious relationship what are you going to do to have fun because most of the time your with the other person. Hey having sex is great and stuff but what are you going to do besides that? Go out drinking with your friends and hit up the clubs... How old and boring does that get once you've done with a bunch of times. Drinking and smoking with friends doesn't really get old because of conversation and company but you don't want to spend most of your time just staying at home with friends do you?
What do you want from a serious relationship? Yea sure you want the company and someone to love you back but how do you keep it from getting old and just staying home. I see so many serious relationships at a young age and I laugh b/c they usually just stay home or rarely go out. Hey no doubt I envy them because I was cool with it but doesn't it get old? I know I didn't get tired of it but I did want something to spicen up after awhile. The worst part is what if people get married soon. What are you going to do when you realize your getting super old and have to deal with work everyday practically and come home to this person and have all the responsibilities of being married. Should people be so serious at a young age and consider marrying someone at a young age. Are they ready to deal with the just going out to dinner, the occasional club here and there, and movie nights?!
I guess I've realized I enjoy the freedom to go out with my friends and party when I feel like it not having to worry about someone else. Yet I wish I had something that wasn't so serious and I could go out with my friends and not feel like ohh I want to spend all my time with the girl. I want it to be a relationship where I can go out to dinner and spend nights alone with her but also go out the next day with the guys and not be stuck in the same routine of living with the other person and having to come home to the wife practically. Ahh the confusion.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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| Live Update from London. |
[03 Jul 2005|05:50am] |
So Live8 was great and smoke out with the whole Pink Floyd crew. Had some good talks about life and what we want out it.
Thursday was a great night and should go back to my last post and start spilling my guts like I usually do. Guess that's one good entry that went to waste because I was too tired to write. Spent the night on my own smoking the hookah any watching Troy. Pretty much cried my eyes out b/c there was no one there to cuddle with or even hold hands. Its been way to long.
Friday was an interesting day. I stayed home all day downloading music and such. Ended up going out and picking up Javi. We drove around Miami just chillen. Met up with Lori after we bought some containers for all the flavor tobacco I have now. Hit up the hookah with some new caramel flavor. It was chill just hanging outside my house with the hookah with Lori and Javi. Always a good time with Lori now. Funny how Lori brought up this BBQ and turns out it was Sergio's bbq so I totally hit that shit up. Dropped Javi off and drove around Miami on my own just thinking about everything. God I get so lonely sometimes I find myself just lost in Miami and goto the closest Starbucks and just sit down and watch everyone around me wishing I had a girl to call my own to call up or just stare into. The BBQ first seemed madd shady but it picked up when the Domino's came out, religious talk, and then good game of Poker.
Today I woke up late as hell and saw an im from Cassie. Went to Dolphin to go meet up with her. Wow I don't know what was wrong with me to have a crush on her. I guess I totally was settling and thought maybe something would work out since we kinda clicked. Guess I was just another guy she met and thought nothing of it so now its so blah and boring without having a crush. After that I came home and watched Live8 show and hit perfect timing right when Pink Floyd came on. Took off and met up with Paula. God little kids can be so lame. We went to 4 partys and wow totally not worth my time. Madd mosquitoes and lame ass people. Atleast I was with Paula so it didn't make it so bad but needed to get home and just chill after all that. Gomez came over and we went to the Grove and picked up some coals for the Hookah. Definitely got back and then picked up Krista at Lakes of the Meadow. Really interesting and chill girl to be around. She definitely seems like she would be an awesome friend to have.
Today was pretty good but the highlight of the day was talking to Paula's boyfriends step mom and dad. Was warned that they crazy and stuff but wow we had some great topics of discussion while at there place waiting for someone. Nice to know that other people out there believe in the Rapture and have such Faith. Not to mention also believe that the time is very near. Call me crazy for thinking all of this but atleast I don't feel alone with my dad about it.
All right time to sleep to the beautiful voice of my lover Fiona. <333
It's been too long since i've cuddled or even held hands with a woman. God please send one to comfort me. Anyone interested? I promise i'm good -=)
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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| It begins with a glimpse or a passing thought. It ends in obsession |
[01 Jul 2005|05:32am] |
O Zahir
"One day a renowned author discovers that his wife, a war correspondent, has disappeared, leaving no trace. Though time brings more success and new love, he remains mystified ? and increasingly fascinated ? by her absence. Was she kidnapped, blackmailed, or simply bored with their marriage? The unrest she causes is as strong as the attraction she exerts.
His search for her ? and for the truth of his own life ? takes him from France to Spain, Croatia and, eventually, the bleakly beautiful landscape of Central Asia. More than that, it takes him from the safety of his world to a totally unknown path, searching for a new understanding of the nature of love and the power of destiny.
With The Zahir, Paulo Coelho demonstrates not just his powerful and captivating storytelling, but also his extraordinary insight into what it is to be a human being in a world full of possibility."
Taken from Paulo Coelho's website
I thought that would be the most appropriate beginning to this entry.
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What are we doing on this Earth?
When am I going to die?
I shall continue this entry tomorrow.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
ps: To everyone who called today I purposely lost my cell phone and was in no mood to look for it while i dealt with my personal demons. I stayed home all day and fought battles inside of me. Watched Troy and smoked my Hookah on my own.
"Even enemies have respect for each other"
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| the maverick in the blue shirt. |
[30 Jun 2005|04:37am] |
Today I woke up from a long night of smoking the hookah and talking with Javi C.
Miss having deep talks with people about religion, politics, art, philosophy, etc...
Lately its only been about music and different bands. I want variety.
It's become aware to me that lots of people share this 6th sense.
Of course it depends on personalities and how much one trains it.
Yet sometimes its just obvious how certain people are.
Today I sat in the Statistics class I've been trying to get. The professor seems to take the course in a different method that my previous Stats teacher took. Not sure if its going to make it more difficult for me or not yet. Hopefully I didn't sit in the class for anything because that wouldn't have been a fun way to waste 3hrs.
My writing seems to be coming and going. Theres times where I feel like its flowing just how I would like it too. Yet there's times where I think it becomes quite dry and my diction seems to repeat itself. I figure listening to music and reading would help but sometimes you just zone out and don't realize that you've abused certain words in the English language. The Mars Volta hopefully will spicen up my word choice since I'll actually study the lyrics now and learn them. Something about learning the words to songs has always been an interest yet its just not something I excel at, same thing with phone numbers.
After wasting away for three hours and almost killing myself as I raced out of the FIU campus I went out to dinner. It was nice getting away and doing something new. Experiencing something I've never done but hopefully will make it a new hobby to do. Just wish I had a lady friend to share it with but that has had no triumph, of course. Ever girl I seem to have someone what interest in is completely out of the question or just something that gets quite dull after awhile. Maybe something will come up one of these days...
After dinner I ventured home to discover that my little cousins were over (including my Goddaughter). Spent some time playing with her and then took a nice long nap. Woke up to realization that I didn't really have any plans for the night. Called up Cassie to see what she was doing since she woke me up during my nap. Realized it was to late to see if she wanted to hang out so got online. Luckily Bedoya was up for doing something. We ended up making plans to go see War of the Worlds. The movie was worth the money but the ending totally killed it. Honestly if you go see the movie time it so you leave 10min before it ends so you can miss the ending. I'm not going to lie it probably was one of the worst endings I've ever seen in my life, 100x worse than Garden State ending. Other than the ending I despise it was great day and amazing company. It was a pleasant night talking to Bedoya and just talking crap while we past time waiting to get out of the madness in the parking garage.
I'm holding a lot of things in lately when I write.
Contemplating on making this thing selective again.
Creating a list of certain people on my friends list that can read it only b/c I have a feeling these long entries tend to annoy some people and also would make it more interesting to see how I write with no holds bar. I know my writing didn't change at all in my private entries but still worth a shot to try to add more flavor to this thing. Only thing is not sure how people who don't have LJs would read my entries.
But if your interested in being added to this selective list drop a line. If noone comments I might just go into private mode again. Strategically this is placed in the middle so the people who just look at it won't realize unless you really do read this.
I feel like I have so much to do yet when I think about it theres not much. I'm starting to use my speed reading program again. I want to increase my speed again so I can finish all these books I'm reading. Ohh they showed a preview of "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" preview. AMAZING! Doesn't come out till December so that should be something to look forward too. Curious if they making all of them or just this one. My drive to live is still flowing but something seems to scare me when I think of Revelations now. It's as if I feel some sort of anxiety or guilt. I can't say let hell break lose now because I would feel like I would regret it. Yet the big picture seems to be getting so close to my grasp that it would be nice to leave this world knowing that I'm still on the path. Not sure if that makes sense yet it some is some weird sick way. Tonight I shall have a talk with God. Tonight I thought about the tattoo I want a lot. I desire that cross over my heart yet something really light so you could only see it if you really look at it. I don't find the need to show the world my tattoos. Also I've really been considering that tattoo of my wedding band more and more. Yet I would really need someone to sweeps me off my feet soon because lately many women just don't interest anymore. I'm not sure if its that they just don't meet the expectations or traits I want in a women or me setting my standards to high because Zasha and Katie were probably the most incredible women I've encountered. Wonder how Katie is doing yet I have no desire to call her anymore it seems so distant that it would be pointless to call. Yet I still think about her. Today I found myself driving and feeling hurt because I put some what effort after I became comfortable with everything that happened and now we don't speak. That connection just isn't there anymore. Zasha and I some how have a very different connection. My mother and father gave me looks and lectures pretty much how I'm playing with fire since I still talk to Zasha. I hate how people are so ignorant to think that anything is going on with us two. Not to mention it really FUCKING hurts how her b/f probably thinks I'm an asshole yet I know if I were to ever meet him he would just put a front. I don't blame him for kinda giving her crap but if he was in my position he would probably understand I'm nothing to be worried about, worried is even too much to say in the topic of Zasha.
Tomorrow not exactly sure what I'm doing. Atleast its not like I don't have something to do even though something always seems to come up. I can hit up the grove and maybe meet a bunch of the TKE guys here in FIU chapter. But on the other hand I can hit up the District. Krista is going with a big group I guess so maybe it'll be fun. Not to mention that girl that came up to me that I didn't recognize is going to be there and I totally want to see her again cause I really want this Halou album she told me about. So confused on what would be the best bet because the Grove isn't my thing but might be worth it because I might meet him cool TKE's to hang out with but then on the other side theres the District where its Krista and her friends but not really close to them but she seems to friendly and we've never really hung out remotely. Sure Gomez is going to try to convince me to goto District so he can try his luck with finding some girl to hook up with or something as if that's a reason to go. It would be nice to find a girl to hook up with but really it doesn't mean I'll show up somewhere because theres girls who I kinda know. I have to know that I'll be having a good time and not worry about drama and who might be there. Not to mention they gave us a hard time last week and it really upset me so I might just take my own car so if I'm not feeling it I can leave at my own leisure.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Jay-eM
ps: Being a nice guy doesn't mean girls will regret leaving you. It takes much more than treating a girl with respect to be a good boyfriend. LOL someone's been really upsetting me but you know what I don't give a fuck anymore they can do what they want and I'll do what I want I guess till the drama ends FORREAL.
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| frustration can't even begin to describe it all.... |
[28 Jun 2005|10:02pm] |
It's amazing how life plays out.
Yesterday hung out with some people I usually don't hang out with. Was nice to see some old faces and just relax. Lara, her friend, Lori, and Karina came over to smoke the hookah. Gomez and Javi also came over for a little hookah action. I had a good time it was good having a different set of people around me. Gives me diversity of studying people and personalities. Usually its the same or old personality types I've been around. Hanging out with the Belen crowd has been straight. now off to play Domino's if people show up.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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[27 Jun 2005|04:54am] |
The time has come to update the world.
First I would like to state that I HATE animals.
Second I would like to state that Mosquitoes are EVIL.
(Send those bitches back to hell)
New music added to collection: (so far)
New Black Eyed Peas
New Nine Inch Nails
New Jamiroquai
New Coldplay
New Foo Fighters
New System of a Down
New Hopesfall
New Alexisonfire
Dj Shadow Endtroducing (Deluxe Edition)
Morcheeba - The Antidote
Emiliana Torrini - Fisherman's Woman
Emiliana Torrini - Love in the Time of Science
Tricky - A Ruff Guide
Tricky - Maxinquaye
Tricky - Pre-Millennium Tension
String Tribute to A Perfect Circle
String Tribute to Nine Inch Nails
String Tribute to Jimi Hendrix
Last time I posted I had just watched Waking Life. I can't even remember what day that was. ::goes back and checks on calendar::
All right Tuesday which means last you heard from me was Monday night. Life has its ups and downs and that's exactly how things have been going. I'm not in one of those stages where I'm high up or severely low.
Most of the week I've been worried about getting these classes at FIU for Summer B. Friday came along and USF still hasn't sent me back this paper I need to take classes. Hopefully I'll be able to take Stat 2 at FIU. Last time I checked there were only 2 spots open at University campus. If that doesn't work out I'll be staying at my aunts in Bal Harbor on Mon and Wed nights so I can get to campus over there at 9:30am (and not have to wake up super early if I leave from home).
I've been spending a lot of time with Gomez and old friend Javi C. Been having a great time in Miami these past couple of days. The hookah base has been replaced with a really nice one. Have been having a lot of people over to smoke some hookah. Hadn't seen Natalie Sanchez nor Bedoya in a long time and they came by one night. Espi and his new girl came by also that same night. Thursday we tried to goto District and they were being madd gay. Some girl approached me that Cadovy introduced me to one night and was interested in talking to her but never got the chance since we didn't get in. Kris F came over early on in that night and brought some girls, happens to be this girl I use to know though Paula that graduated with her. They all asked me if she was a lesbian and Paula called and definitely confirmed it. Thought that was a bit random.
This week I was looking forward to Vicky coming back into town. I really want a new person to hang out with that's there at an intellectual level. Zasha and I have been talking a lot lately but I know her b/f isn't to happy about it. I wish all of that would end... if he would only meet me and see that theres nothing between us and truth is I've been over Zasha for awhile. He has a valid point saying that you don't forget the love you have for someone but he might not realize that if you don't adjust the feelings and recognize that its over it'll haunt you forever. Plus having Vicky in town he would see that I have total crush on Vicky but haven't really seen or spoken to her in awhile so yeah... I don't think Zasha liked the fact when I told her after we became close. Funny how they call each other wife.
This past week-end has probably been the most fun I've had in Miami. It's quite ironic because its been with the Belen guys. Never would have I thought that it would have been like that. I have to thank Javi C for that because ever since we started hanging out now he's brought the Belen crowd back into the picture. Nights have been filled with old faces and many memories.
Friday Gomez came over later on in the night after work. We were suppose to goto the Laser show but we missed it. I hung out at the book store for awhile. Wow some really cute girls there (wish I had more confidence). Whenever I'm there I feel like buying every book but then it hits me that I'm currently reading like 4 books right now. More and more I see myself becoming more mature, passion for life growing, and being able to stick to having a good heart. Reading and music seem to keep things flowing...
Met up with Zasha at Starbucks with Gomez after we realized we would miss the laser show. Zasha and I had a good talk like usual. Its always nice to have a good conversation in person not only over the phone. Brimo called her and brought back memories because how she talks to her lol. (funny part is I run into Brimo while at Mariano's part Saturday). After Starbucks we hit up this girl Suzys party at her place. Run into all the old school belen people like: Gaby, Gaston, Eric, Volsky, Eugene, Nick C, Ricky, Enrique, etc... Pretty much drank most of the night while playing Beer Pong at times. Not going to lie I suck at Beer Pong with 10 cups cause wow we totally got owned. Well maybe its because Volsky is a Pro at the game. Never seen anyone play with such consistency.
Saturday I woke up to a phone call from Javi C that BBQ was definitely going down because it actually wasn't raining. Went over to Publix and bought a 9lbs pork shoulder cause that's how I roll. Yea its a BBQ but I knew that something for later would be total clutch. Head over to Javi's. Set up the Pork for the oven, drank a couple beers, grilled a couple burgers, played some Domino's, and just ate shit. Got to hang out with Aldo, Mariano, and Derek since they weren't at the party on Friday. Planned for a Keg to be dropped at Mariano's that same night since his parents went out of town. Things were working out great since madd people around just sitting back enjoying the company. Headed out to buy some coals for the hookah and pick up some special stuff. The guy at the Tobacco place I goto now and where I got my new base hooks me up. Seriously the guy has saved me so many times. Bought Melon since he gave me coals from his personal stash. And you know what Melon is GREAT! Headed back to Javi's with Gomez and moved the Pork to Marianos. The Pork was finally ready at like 1am! Everyone pretty much just wanted to get on their knees after they tried some pork. Had a blast at Mariano's because of all the old school people around. Got to party it up with Carlos. He's my boy and everything but I had to take him down in beer pong with Gomez. Definitely beat Volsky and Carl in beer pong (that's madd impressive). Gomez totally came back in the end and made madd shots. It's been hard adjusting to 10 cups instead of 5 cups.
Later on in the night lets just say Javi was like this is the most mest up I've ever been in my life. That just shows you how much of a good time we were having. Not to mention Carl going skinny dipping was pretty crazy and random girls grabbing onto guys and stuff. Yet to meet any interesting girls at any of the parties but no big deal because I was having a blast. Was great when I walked into Mariano's with the pork and the look that Brimo had even though Mariano told me she asked if I was showing up. hahaha. Ahh memories...
Today was pretty slow even though we slept till like 5pm cause we didn't get to my house till about 6am. Times like these make me realize that Miami has its positive things. Hopefully next week-end will be just as fun. Got in contact with Robert and he also was throwing a Keg at his place. Didn't make it out over there but hope to hang out with him later on this week. I haven't gone to to District or Soho in awhile either (well not inside atleast). Wish I had a cool group of girls to hit that shit up with. Having a dancing partner to yourself is always fun. Maybe I'll run into that girl who likes Trip-Hop again since Krista and her have been hanging out a lot it seems. Also haven't seen Cassie in long time but theres moments where I'm like ahhhh waste of my time but only one that seems somewhat kinda up for something. Sigh please put someone new in my path God.
I think this entry has some justice... not everything I wanted to say was put down but no biggie.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
ps: Does anyone have these albums or can download them and send them to me. I can't find them ANYWHERE!!!
Halou - Wiser
Esthero - Breath from Another
Baxter - Baxter
Daughter Darling - Sweet Shadows
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| Dreaming is Destiny |
[21 Jun 2005|12:39am] |
I had one of those moments that I had to get away again.
I went to Salsa Lovers tonight at 7. For some odd reason I feel like I'm interested in Cassie again yet believe I'm settling because I have nothing. It's been to long since female has shown me some what of attention and enthusiasm to talk to me or see me.
I can't even follow my own advice that I give to my best friend. I just hope I'm wrong for once with her situation.
Can't get this girl off my mind yet I know it'd probably be dull.
Ever since the whole night at Rodrigo's which I don't want to go into detail I've been having these weird feelings I use to have. They are kind of feelings of being high yet it just hit me they are more of that spiritual awareness because it seems to get more intense now.
Something going to happen and not sure if its going to be good or bad.
I believe that EVERYONE should watch Waking Life at least once in there life time. I actually need to go back and watch it again while I'm not so tired.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Jay-eM
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| I need sanctuary in the pages of this book.... |
[20 Jun 2005|08:28pm] |
I haven't written in this thing for awhile. A long entry is past due but not in the state of mind right now.
Right now what would make me happy. Actually let me correct that by saying what would make me happy for the rest of my life probably:
Laying by the beach.
The Mars Volta playing really loud.
A beautiful woman holding on to me while on sand.
Absolutely no humans around but the angel of my dreams.
No need for speaking or conversation because our eyes would do the speaking and our mouths would do the listening.
Life would be complete.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Jay-eM
ps: If someone could hook me up with some Salsa music that would be nice.
pss: finally told Cassie i liked her. she's totally clueless or playing dumb
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| You make that dance look so new.... |
[17 Jun 2005|02:19am] |
Hopefully time will slow down. My time here in Tampa is almost up. I think theres a good chance I'll be staying here for Summer B. It's so peaceful over here. I can just lay in bed all day or on the sofa listening to music, playing WoW, smoke, or drink. Some company would be nice but you know what life is good.
ok I'm drunk as fuck I'm offf I can't write intthis thing anymore... took a break while righting and now drunk as hell... college life is good
not going to lie. I can;t even remember what I was aying the in last paraggraph. Get fucked up!!
I think everyone should comment cause yea its one of thost days that everyouone should be drunhk cause its Thursday night!!
Time for the pool!! peace out kids!
JAy-eM
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| I miss you like the Desert misses the Rain... (the irony) |
[14 Jun 2005|05:43am] |
Today was great. Woke up late as hell because stayed up all night playing WoW, watching Requiem for a Dream, more WoW, and then Shoalin Soccer. Good times with Kevin and Blaine. Pretty much just hung out online talking to some friends. Majority of the day I spent it playing WoW.
I read in Dan's LJ that he talked to a friend of his how WoW has ruined lots of people's lives. I thought though for awhile if it has done anything destructive to me. The answer was quite simple No. If something comes up I'll stop playing and go out. The game is there to fill that empty time that I would spend doing nothing. Hey its better than staring into that worthless box.
I actually had some food today. Well now that I think about not really. hah. Last night we ordered pizza at 3am. Since I had left overs I had that for lunch. Stayed home the entire day. It was until Blaine asked me if I wanted to goto the Club House with him to play some Pool. Logged off and headed over with Blaine after turning down Kyrstal to hang out. Much rather hang out with Blaine than deal with a woman. We had a good time and had some pretty good pool games. I'm rusty but atleast was picking up my game by the end. After a handful of games we started playing Ping Pong. Thought of Angel and all the Kung Fu movies I've seen recently, not exactly sure why. We really got engulfed by the energy of the game. Kept on going back and fourth not following the rules except our own we declared in our heads together telepathically: Don't let the ball stop bouncing.
Ended the night out of the apartment with a smoke outside by the pool with Blaine. God you've made everyone in different shapes and sizes but wow impressive job with this girl by the pool tonight. One day I hope to have my star to ride with next to.
We ended up coming straight to the apt and not checking to see if Kyrstal was still up. I had no intentions for some reason hanging out with someone new since she said her friend from work was going over also. Me and my odd intuitions about people and curtain environments I might be placed in. Ever since Kevin has been obsessing over his Kung Fu and swearing by it made me want to watch Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon. So loaded up my old friend and hit that. It's always a great feeling just laying back in the sofa enjoying a fascinating film.
( Dialogue in movie )
I find that dialogue in the movie being the most interesting besides the end. Not going to get into the ending for those who haven't seen it. But this part of the movie explains what my dreams are so well. I've become a Maverick more and more without even trying. It's as if the Earth seems to be unfolding for this to be my destiny. Now to chose between chasing the stars or be like the wind. For if the Desert has rain it no longer is a desert.
Today while talking to a friend I thought of something. I was analyzing certain things about relationships and the different types of people. I'll place people into two levels. One being the star chasers and the others like the wind. The star chasers being the innocent yet prudent of the population. The wind riders being the indifferent yet independent of the population. We all begin as the star chasers with hope of the perfect person for us. They realize that someday after its all said and done they will have the brightest star. Then come the wind riders who use to be star chasers but lost there path and lost hope now following the wind and travel carelessly. They realize that life can cause great pain in relationships so they move freely without worries and constrain.
I find myself embracing both levels. I know in the end we must stay true to our real level. Mine being Star Chaser. Envious of those who can truly become that second level. No level is superior to the other. Either way when Love has its way two Star Chasers, two Wind Riders, or one Star Chaser and one Wind Rider can find happiness in each other.
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
( Dumb Astrology stuff )
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| The Conclusion... |
[12 Jun 2005|04:02am] |
After hanging out being tortured by MTV Caro eventually completed her work. I was pretty anxious to see how this 80s night type thing was going to be like. Turns out its at the place I went to go see the Spam Allstarz (awesome! memories!). We walked by because it seemed pretty dead. I was up for a little walk so we did a lil scope out of the area around us. Saddened me when I look over across the street and see a bunch of people hanging out at The Top this great restaurant Katie introduced me too. Have some cute pictures from there ::sigh::. But yea you have to be 21 to hang out there after a certain time. This is when a fake id would be great.
I could tell Caro was pretty tired and needed some sleep so I decided not to check it out since it look so empty. We headed back and I ended up just listening to music for a good portion of the night. It was relaxing to just sit back with my headphones on and zone off. I'm totally coming in and out of the zone. Stole this Portishead album I didn't know existed till I took a bunch of music from Caro. I'm totally feeling the music as I type this second part of my week-end.
Woke up early Friday for the reason of not over sleeping a call from my big brother. He didn't end up leaving to pick me up till later on so I hung out online trying to play WoW but definitely wasn't working with the connection. All I remember doing was trying to steal as much music on Caro's computer before I left and speaking to a friend from USF, Lara. It's interesting to speak to someone you normally don't hang out with or talk to online. We totally had a great conversation and felt like I learned so much. The thrill of getting to know someone new and not having to really push conversation at first is great. Nice to know that there someone from Miami that's in Tampa that's really interesting to talk to.
Caro showed up before Big brother came and we hung out for a bit. She ended up wanting to steal a lot of my music also. Said my good byes since she didn't want to come hang out with us. She sold us out to goto the gym I'm sure. Yet she's probably the skinniest girl I know and probably the tallest also. She this thing now that she has to be tone... women when are they going to realize they don't have to be so self conscious its not healthy.
Big Bro and I then had an adventure since he wanted to visit the Law School and check out the TKE house. We ended up getting pretty lost at times even with a map. Larry's not to fond of UF now cause he doesn't like the idea of not being able to drive around and stuff. Ohh well we eventually found the TKE house and Law School. It wasn't really a big deal cause everything was pretty much empty because it was Friday and almost 5:30. We finally made our great escape back to Tampa.
I'm astonished how great this band is. I didn't think anything would live up to the Deftones. Yet Team Sleep is pretty serious... The trip down with Big bro seemed to go by so fast. We were just talking crap the whole time. It was nice bonding experience with big brother. Glad to know that I have friends who would drive me an hour and half just to pick me up for a party. Not to mention another one who would take to to Orlando so I could meet up again with my cousins. That ended up not happening because I'm going to stay here to take care of my school stuff. Hopefully more events will go down while I'm here.
We ended up not getting the keg till about 10ish. I wanted to get this party going early but it kind of took forever for the keg. I got some extremely disturbing news but I don't want to get into right now. I'll save that for a new entry later on. It's been really been a downer. I know its nothing serious but still bothers me. I'll save this crap and worries for another entry...
The party seemed to start off pretty slow. Ended up playing some Beer Pong with Big Bro and beating Rabbit and his g/f (wow I almost forgot about that completely). Drank lots of hunch punch. Should of never drank it so fast because I was feeling pretty buzzed by the 4th cup. I ended up getting pretty drunk and had plenty of smoke sessions. It was great to see familiar faces like Kevin, Helen, Robin, Stephanie, etc... I had a great time but not so sure if everyone else did. I know I was just straight up retarded at certain points that I just shut down and stayed quite. I know there were two kids who came with Mike that really were upsetting me. They were talking madd shit and once the realized I was totally listening to their conversation they kinda cooled it down. Yet they would make subtle jokes about Mike and Steve and it really bothered me. I was like Damn those my brothers and don't come to a party if your going to hate cause I'll have to step up to you and you don't want that. Especially when your at my apartment its just not the smartest thing.
Ended up talking and smoking a lot with Steve's little girl that he brought. Literally this girl was a little girl. I was totally shocked when she said she was 16. I kinda freaked out when she dropped that line. I felt like Zasha. LOL She was pretty interesting to talk to and was a good smoking buddy. Too bad she was 16 she was decent looking. Found her screen name and stuff on my laptop when woke up.
I think the party was a success for the last minute plans and everything. I was surprised to find the apartment in the shape that it was when I woke up. It really wasn't that bad. Of course I had to clean up a bit and vacuumed but nothing to serious. Thank you to anyone who helped out cleaning because I was totally out and last time I looked in the kitchen it was much worse then when I woke up.
Today I've totally have sloshed around the apartment. I figure that just laying in the sofa is very therapeutic. The thought of knowing that I had nothing to do all day was amazing. It came to me much later in the night after I wrote the first half of this post. I had no problem being at the apartment the whole entire day and just laying around and doing nothing. Yet if I was in Miami I know I would have been going nuts and shooting myself before I sat around the house so much. The atmosphere change has really helped me out.
Steve, Big Bro, and Beerboy came over later on in the night. We ended up smoking and just hanging out while I wrote the last parts of my first journal entry. Alyson finally showed up and we headed out to The Waffle House since everyone was hungry. It finally dawned to me that I hadn't eaten all day since I haven't had a car. I knew I was hungry but really wasn't to worried about it. I love that about being here in Tampa I never really get hungry. It's like ohh time pasted and I should have eaten but never got that hungry enough to do anything about it.
If this thing that's been bothering me turns out to be forreal and serious I might lose talking to someone I really cherish. I don't want to get into the details but it seems like conversational skills seem to be some sort of disease and majority of people have taken a vaccine for it.
Now off to watch a Kung Fu movie with Kevin....
If you read both of these. WOW. Props I'm impressed and you should definitely comment and recognize yourself. haha
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
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| And you think you're alone... |
[11 Jun 2005|10:36pm] |
All right first off I would like to say things have been going my way lately and it feels great. I'm writing from Tampa in my living room of my apartment. It's been quite an adventure so far and not exactly sure when its going to be over. I hope all of this is enough to pull me out of my depression for awhile.
I totally did this last minute and so proud I did something so impulsive. Something in my felt so guilty leaving my dad alone the past couple days. I love being back in Tampa and visiting old friends but I don't want to hurt my dad. It all started Wednesday when I woke up around 3:30pm. I find my cousins at my place since the older of the three kids has football camp in Gainesville and they dropped off my Goddaughter for the day at my place before leaving.
My cousin proceeds to tell me that I should definitely go with them especially since they going to Blizzard Beach. I really couldn't hold back I knew I had to do something about my depression and I had planned in my head going up. I'm tired of not acting on what I want to do and regretting them. End up packing in like 5min and just jumping in the car.
The road trip was something I'll never forget. We got pulled over twice!!! First time I totally was like whoa that's definitely an undercover and within seconds we were busted. Second time we were leaving after dinner at a rest stop and my cousin was on the phone. Totally was like dude we kinda going to fast right now. BAM! another cop pulls us over. Luckily they got off the second time and the first time they got two warnings which only comes out to $75. It was cool just chillen in the back listening to music. My cousin and I talked a lot about her college years at USF. She was a DG and she was telling me all the different socials she went to and parties. Gave me some pretty good ideas for socials in the future and such.
Eventually all the wrong turns, pull overs, rest stops, and endless bathroom breaks we made it into Gainesville. Called my friend Caro up and she proceeded to tell me she wasn't home and wouldn't be for awhile. So went with my cousins to check in and just chill for awhile.
It sort of brought a chill down my spine when we past Boardwalk. I feel like that night I went to get coffee with Katie will be one of the few last times I'll see her. She's got a whole new life now. I wish her the best but it really hurt to see that her passion for her dream seems to be weakening. Not to mention if was odd hearing her say that she didn't like people and only animals. She had such away with people and hadn't lost hope in humans like so many of us. Saw a totally different person infront of me. Scared me way to much. Sad to lose someone so close to you especially when you feel like you don't know anything about them anymore. It's funny how the world unfolds before us when we think we have all that we want in this planet.
Time pasted and the hands had a couple laps before Caro showed up it seemed. Brought a rush to be in a different location then my house. The red comfy sofa that lays perfectly lined up to middle of the tv screen. How that wreched box has had its way with me this trip. I just layed there all night relaxing and enjoying the new atmosphere.
The next day I was woken up by Caro in the late afternoon. Of course I slept as much as I could because of the fact that I could. We decided that it would be a great idea to get some food. She had plans to goto Dragon Fly that night so we didn't want something to heavy to our stomachs so we could devourer as much sushi as we could in the near future. The location we finally chose for lunch was Macallisters (sp). Saw a really cute Chi O infront of us while we waited in line. It's amazing how different a college town like Gainesville is compared to Miami and Tampa. Where ever you turn in Gainesville you'll probably end up running into someone that goes to UF or Santa Fe. It's wonderful especially if your a single young male. lol
During conversation over lunch I decided that it would be a great idea to goto UF for my MBA. Is Boston really worth it? It's somewhere I really enjoyed when I went to visit but when it comes down to it will it be worth it? The price will be dramatically different and I believe I could probably find a young girl at UF with a similar background who I might possibly be interested in. Tampa women just have nothing in common with me for the most part. I've met all sorts of people here and no one really seems to have anything in common. Doesn't mean I haven't met some cool people and awesome friends . Now the idea of going to UF has sort of excited me as well. It seems like something is always going on over there. To the point where when we first arrived we drove around to visit some places they had memories at. There were people everywhere just walking around hanging out at bars on a Wednesday. I was so jealous because Tampa is nothing like that around campus nor is Miami except when you go out.
After lunch I seriously never thought I would do such a thing but I sat in that seductive red sofa and actually watched television. It's obvious that I hate the television but I wasn't in the mood to read my book and the Internet in Caro's drops like every five minutes so I couldn't play WoW. I sat there and watched some ghetto videos. It's interesting all the funky names rap singers come up with now.
The hour came when it was time to depart for our very anticipated dinner at Dragon Fly. We picked up one of Caro's friends which happened to goto Epiphany with me and was cousins with a kid in my class. Dragon Fly is amazing but I don't remember having to wait an hour or something for sushi. Of course this long wait that seemed to be pretty steep was well worth the quality of sushi we got. They even got some fried ice cream which totally hit the spot.
We ventured back to the apartment so Caro could do some homework before we went out. Ended up being seduced again by the sofa and turned the tv on. It so happened that the day that I decide to watch MTV it's the movie awards. Kinda was interesting to watch all the people dressed up. You know your kinda fucked up when your critizing what everyone is wearing and not that attracted to most of the people there because the chances that they live completely fake lives. Yet I'm sure there's plenty of extremely interesting people in Hollywood because you need to morph into different characters and still live your regular life with a wife or husband. One cool thing I learned was that Mr. and Mrs. Smith is one big metaphor how marriage is LOL (So that's what Angelina says).
All right Break
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Jay-eM
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| ATTENTION 813 KIDS... |
[09 Jun 2005|03:02am] |
Looks like Big Bro and I are having a huge party on Friday!!!
It will most likely be at Boardwalk.
Not exactly sure which apartment but its going DOWN!
Should be atleast 2 kegs and if not 1 keg with massive amounts of hunch punch!
Also if anyone could get me a ride or take me back to Gainesville on Saturday or preferably to Orlando later Saturday. I will repay you fully and pay for the gas...
Jay-eM
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